Betrayal of My Body

My heart is pounding loudly in my chest.  I can feel the blood pulsing in my throat.  My ears are experiencing a slight ringing.  Every swallow that I take is performed with purpose.  I told myself over and over that I wouldn't get nervous.  I visualized myself being calm.  I tried to convince myself that tonight doesn't really matter.  But my body is betraying me.  I have my final class in a certain course tonight.  This class has been more of a mental struggle than anything.  I thought that I could make it not matter.  But it does matter.  Making things matter is a part of who I am.  Now it's up to me to deal with the treason of my body from my mind.  Deep breath Linda.  Just a few more hours.  Lord, will You hold my hand?